I just read a book yesterday that had a one paragraph part where the woman is needing confidence so she was advised by someone to remember something about "Carry the Confidence". I don't even remember what or why the phrase was used for the fictional character.. but it's stuck with ME. Like a mantra of sorts. I've been struggling with confidence and worth issues for a long time, months good, months bad, and just now coming out of one of the bad spells. I need to FOCUS on carrying the confidence, and have it STAY with me. I feel really alive today, and really good about myself. I was walking in a parking lot the other day and started feeling anxious, everyone is looking at me, etc etc and I stood up straighter, walked taller, and said to myself "wtf. you are a strong sexy mother, you can do anything. you can do THIS." and the moment passed. I know that probably sounds ridiculous to other people, which is why I'm here.. talking to a blog.. but it was really good for me!
Even in the midst of all the confusion about what I'm doing with my relationship and the choices I'm struggling with there, I feel like I'm being reborn. Coming out of the funk. It's so good. My adjectives are off today. So good. Soooo good. :)
What I'm trying to say is, good job self. We're getting somewhere.
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This makes me happy to read. :) Good for you!
ReplyDeleteI struggled with self-confidence for years, especially after a bad break-up with my ex. It didn't help that I was a "people pleaser", putting everyone else's needs before my own, afraid to voice my own opinion or speak up.
Listen to Bif Naked's song "I Love Myself Today" - blast it really loud!