Just me & the bandit.

Much in need of an update I suppose. Well. The house is all mine now. And I have a couch. Finally.
Ok, I feel the need to ramble on. So I will.
-I have made a good girlfriend who I'm really a little confused with the friendship at this point. Yea, I can't figure that out. There's something I can't put my finger on as to what this girl is thinking when it comes to me. She is either just very much in need of a friend, or doesn't realize she's being overbearing, or something else. Kind of strange. I don't know.
-Why. can't. I. break. ties. with. this. man? Am I really so weak I can't handle the confrontation, even though we uh, have confrontation! every day that I keep allowing him to be in my life!? I wouldn't let anyone else in my life treat me this way, why do I let him? And I'm sitting here stewing and suffering because there's other things I'd like to do with myself and even simply with my time, but no, I keep myself in this hole. I don't understand.
-Money-surprisingly no issues. Doing quite well. I don't know why, but I'm doing alright.
-Self-I'm doing ok. Or not. As far as my recent really freaking terrible bout with some self-image issues, that seems to have gone by the wayside. And I'm ok. I feel like death. But I'm ok.

I need to stop lying to myself.